Over Christmas, me and my boyfriend went to Crystal Palace Park, and I really enjoyed it. We went to see the dinosaur statues, as fans of dinosaurs. We walked hand in hand, even if we started out going the wrong way, and it was a lovely day. We walked round the lake, and it was… Continue reading Crystal Palace Park
Category: Mental health
Why I love music
I love music, and I always will. With music, nothing else matters. It is meditation, in its purest form. The melodies seep into my mind, washing away worries and doubts. It relaxes me, quietens busy thoughts and buzzing anxieties, like smoke. It consumes me from head to toe, spreading peace and joy through my bone,… Continue reading Why I love music
Small Spaces
I have a very small bedroom. There’s room for my bed, a wardrobe, a chair, my clarinet, a small space on the floor to sit on, some room under the bed for my stuff, and that’s about it. I’ve always felt trapped, in this small space. There’s no room to breathe, to be, to create,… Continue reading Small Spaces
Quiet Time
I’m not an introvert. I do enjoy socialising. I like going places, and meeting people. I like exploring new places, making new friends. I like to talking to others, even at meetings and parties. I battle my mind to go, and it’s usually worth it. I get in the zone, forget my mind for a… Continue reading Quiet Time
The Christmas Steam Train Ride
Last night, we did something new for Christmas. We went on a steam train ride. It was my mums birthday, and my dad surprised her with this treat, after twenty five years of not taking her out for her birthday. It was me, her, my dad and my boyfriend. And it was lovely. The station… Continue reading The Christmas Steam Train Ride
Christmas Concert
We didn’t get to do a Christmas concert last year. So tonight felt even more special. I missed it. I’ve played the clarinet in wind bands for fifteen years. I’ve always done a Christmas concert. So last year felt strange without one. We couldn’t do one, still locked down. Ww recorded something, but it wssnt… Continue reading Christmas Concert
Loving Dancing
I love dancing. I always have, and I always will. My grandma always said it came from her. She loved dancing, and always did. It was how she met her husband, my grandfather, at a local dance. Now she’s gone, when I dance with my other half, I think of her, imagine her doing the… Continue reading Loving Dancing
A Better Year
For the past four years, I have struggled with the festive season. I first got diagnosed with the visual impairment in 2017, just before Christmas. It was a horrible time, one of the worst periods of depression I’ve ever experienced, made worse by the cheerful season. The years after were a little better, but still… Continue reading A Better Year
New Ways of Reading
I love reading, and I always will. Growing up, I would read hundreds of books, always eager for more. Mainly fantasy, or science fiction. Occasionally a horror or two, when I was a little older. I would read for whole days, devouring tomes heavier than I could carry. I stopped reading books, when the visual… Continue reading New Ways of Reading
Hating Fireworks
I don’t like fireworks. I never have. And I never will. I know I’m supposed to. But I just can’t. I know that when I admit this, people moan. Say I’m being a spoilsport, that I should just get over it, or that it’s not a big deal. But they are a big deal for… Continue reading Hating Fireworks